Monday, February 13, 2012

A little bit older

I had a birthday today. It was neither a big deal nor a little one; I don't care much that I'm getting older, and I don't particularly want to be younger. It's good to be who you are. In general I think I'm very Julia. That makes me happy.

I was up early, because I had a good dream that appeared to be heading the wrong way (my plane was taking off and I realized I was outside on the wing), so I thought it was better to wake up. I lay in bed thinking about beginning a new year. I know better than to wish I knew what lay ahead. I mean, really. We've all BTDT, and I can tell you that if God ever sat me down and said, "Well, this year, Julia, you're going to deal with ___ and ___ and _____" I'd be screaming, "NO way can I do that! Not a chance!"

Except, of course, I can. And when I'm stuck with it, I do. And in the long run that's better, and I'm a better person because of it. Even if at the time it stinks.

I have two pieces of good news to report:
  • At the last possible minute, Dancer was given a scholarship to the high school of her choice in EXACTLY the amount we needed, and 
  • Big Guy will have insurance again as of March 1. His case worker has filed to get him bumped up to the next level of care, too, which would give him a Medicaid disability waiver and a number of in-home services. That could be good.
Eldest thought ahead and made me a charming card, and snail-mailed it, and it arrived today. Smile. And Snuggler was very concerned that we didn't have sufficient festivities planned (to be frank, there were none at all), and when Andrew brought her home from play rehearsal they arrived with a cake. Little Guy wrote me a persuasive essay (a first!) on how he should be allowed to buy another top. He typed it.

My mom sent me a box with the two things I'd asked for: vacuum cleaner bags and a pair of jeans. 

And so the day ends with much to be thankful for. I am content, and older, and still staggering along the trail of sanity. Here's hoping the same is true for you.


  1. Happy Birthday - and don't you just love dreams! Who can explain them; I have some crazy ones too that defy reason. May your next year be filled with love, patience and the knowledge that you are strong enough, patient enough and loving enough to handle whatever comes your way. We, your readers, know you are!

  2. Happy Birthday (one hour, 10 mins to spare!)

  3. Sounds like a wonderful day. Happy birthday to you!

  4. Happy Birthday sweet Julia! You are surrounded with love :)))

  5. It sounds like you had a wonderful day. You are an inspiration Julia.
    I am glad God doesn't share all the plans he has in store for us. The older I get, the better the faith walk looks!! :)
    Have a blessed year!~!~

  6. Happy Birthday. I am so very happy for the wonderful things that happened to your children and, thus, your family as a whole. Blessings to you!

  7. Well, happy birthday and...does this mean welcome to DA?! I've been praying for your daughter and her scholarship; it's wonderful news and I'm convinced that DA is the best girls' Catholic HS around!

    And now what a coincidence: my daughter is graduating from DA this June and won't need her uniforms anymore...if you want them, you are more than welcome to them. They are well-made and even if it's not a perfect fit, it might be worth it to alter instead of buying new. We did just that with some hand-me-downs when she started; these we bought new about 2 yrs ago. They're yours if you want them.

    ~Westchester mom

  8. Yes, she is going to DA! Would love the uniforms. Email me at and we'll connect.

  9. Happy birthday, Julia! I hope you will have a great year. I am thrilled that your daughter received the scholarship and your son will soon have insurance again. You are a blessing!

  10. Happy Birthday Julia!

    Blessings abound - insurance, uniforms, scholarships and cake. :)

  11. YAY! YAY! YAY! Make joyful noise!!! I am so glad to hear the good news about high school and insurance. May there be more good news and birthday wishes that come true!! Happy Birthday!

  12. Happy Belated Birthday Julia! It looks like you received exactly what you needed for your birthday!! All my best for a year filled with love, happiness and peace!